John Broman/ Personal Journal Entry

by John Broman

8/10/12

9:20pm

God damn. I think I’m about the dumbest SOB alive sometimes. Or just a glutten for punishment. I called my ex today. It’s been a couple months since i’ve tried. She answered and hung up. Which really just got me pissed and i called back. She told me she was at work and to call her back in an hour. I told her I wanted to talk to her and to answer when i called, not to do me like she has. She said that she wanted to talk to me too. So….I get back. Stand in line for 30 min. and no freaking answer. Get back in line for ANOTHER 30 min. and no freaking answer! I tried after count and it went straight to voice mail. Dude…it messed me up for the whole damn day. What really gets me is that i was doing REALLY good without her. Without thinking about her and just, everything that comes from really wanting to be with someone who’s on the street and your in prison. Shit, so that’s why i think i’m just a freaking masochist, or maybe I’m still in love. (but is there really a difference?) I had to go workout ALL night to kinda chill myself out to get “back to normal”. I’ll be done with this story for Seth this week. It’s going to be 10 years i’ll be locked up at the end of this month. I’m making the conscious effort to get rid of ALL the negative shit that’s kept me down the last 10 years and make the most of this next 5. Which first and foremost is to be done with my ex. Kinda like a new years resolution, but….doing it in Aug. Hey, why not though right.

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