Steven Dybvad – Personal Journal Entry – September 7, 2012

by Steven Dybvad

Friday, September 7, 2012

I realize that even though I stay clear of any form of mind or mood altering substances, I don’t associate with gangs or people for that matter, I don’t get tattoos, I don’t borrow things or get loans until store day, I don’t go to the chow hall, etc.  Plain and simple, even though I stay far away from any and all prison corruption, or activities, I notice that I did take a temporary step back.  I allowed my depression to get the best of me.  I started slacking on my reading, writing and workbook assignments.  I fell into a hopeless state of “Woe is me”!  This is an old and way too familiar and primitive form of living, feeling and thinking for me.  But you know what?  I still see growth.  I’ve done a great deal of good with my strength and knowledge for life.  To be able to notice that I started falling behind is progress.  To say hey, I’ve got 18 months sober!  That is progress.  To stare in the face of adversity at its peak and continue to live above these prison standards, not subject myself to the evils that lurk around every corner is progress!  Every day I continue to thank the Lord for helping me conquer these most difficult times in my life thus far.

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