Steven Dybvad – Personal Journal – December 7, 2012

by Steven Dybvad

Friday, December 7, 2012

I think about my son and daughter all the time. I miss my family so much. The thing is that I didn’t appreciate all the blessings in my life when I was on the streets, strung out on powerful prescription drugs, among many other deadly substances. I dare to say that I didn’t appreciate things as much when I was free because I wasn’t really free, I was in the self-inflicted prison of substance abuse and doing any and everything I possibly could to remain in my toxic trans-, oblivious to caring about the world around me. Now that I’ve woken from my drug induced coma, I care about everything and everyone in my life, so much that it hurts. I am deeply affected by any and everything that goes on in my life and the lives of everyone around me. Although these extreme emotions are often painful, it is invigorating to be able to feel again, and to care about something other than my next fix. I see my sensitive nature as a strong, positive quality of mine and I will stop at nothing to ensure that I continue moving forward on this path, never to return to that old way of life. I wouldn’t even call it a way of life, it was more like the walking dead.

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