Steven Dybvad – Personal Journal – June 1, 2014
Today is my son, Taylors’ ninth birthday. I was fortunate enough to call both him and my daughter, Caitlin from my parents’ house yesterday. My mother and father had a birthday pool party for Taylor at their house, enabling me to call and wish him a happy birthday. I really hate myself for missing yet another one of my children’s’ birthdays, but at least I know that I’ll never be missing another single special occasion with any of my children after my release from prison and for the rest of our lives. Only death itself can stop me from being depended on by my family.
For more than a week now I’ve had a really bad stomach ache. All week I’ve tried to rest and take it easy and nothing has changed my stomach pains only increased. Yesterday I decided to start fasting in order to expel whatever is causing me so much pain. This is the first time I have ever done anything like this. I haven’t had a single bite to eat since Friday night. After tonight I will have fasted for 48 hours without food. A whole lot of water and some powdered protein drink mixes are all that I’ve had. Yesterday I was starving, but today it’s not as bad, only mental. I’ve been feeling a funny kind of euphoria from not eating, maybe it’s just my body’s’ way of coping without food. The most important thing is that today I’m finally starting to feel better, no more stomach pains. Mission accomplished. Tomorrow morning I’ll be going to breakfast, back to eating well, running the track and working out hard.