Zachary Gloudemans/ Class 1: Values

by Zachary Gloudemans

16. Who are you?

i am Zachary Gloudemans, known as Smiley. i am from NH. i am an artist and an aspiring musician. i am a humble and respectful person but have made many bad decisions out of character which have brought me to usp canaan.

17. Describe your background with regard to your education, vocation or career, troubles with the law.

my life has been made up of many experiences and i consider it to be unique. i was raised in a broken home but my mother and my father both put effort into keeping the negative effects off of me and to educate me and help me to be cultured. i lived mainly in my mothers home who is an extremely talented artist and a phenomenal pianist. my father is an avid outdoorsman and loves to hunt and fish. my parents were both service members and had met during their duty. i gained a wealth of knowledge and abilities from them. i am a landscaper by trade and had been dedicated to it for almost 7 years. i worked hard and worked my way up through the company and became an important figure in the daily operations. i had learned to be disciplined and developed a strong work ethic as a young man and it only became a stronger part of my character as i grew older. i had moved many times as a youth and attended 11 different schools and lived in many states. i became an introverted and independent person as a teenager. early in my teens i became involved with a criminal lifestyle.

i had been involved with many petty crimes until i became an adult. as an adult i became a felon. i had lived a double life where i would work all day and hustle all night. i separated myself

18. What are you going through now?

as of now i am going through what most people would be during their first time being incarcerated. on top of the obvious issues i have many physical  problems and severe chronic pain due to the car crash that ended the speed pursuit from the police. i have a strained relationship with my girlfriend of 6 years. i do have a very positive relationship with my mother. she supports me and helps daily. many of my family members have also stepped up to support me and have vowed to help me in any way to return the working man i was but to also refrain from criminality.

Describe your vision of the best person you can become during the following time frames:

19. Time remaining to serve.

doing the most i can to stay out of drama and avoid any type of shot.

20. One month after release.

be employed and saving money to get on my own feet.

21. One year after release.

having my own place again, a car, and hopefully a repaired relationship with my girlfriend.

22. Five years after release.

being as much involved in a career as i was before i got locked up as well as preparing for a long term future.

23. How do those in society perceive people in prison?

i believe people in society view anyone in prison as a wholly bad person and untrustworthy.

24. Describe how television programs and movies depict prisoners:

tv and movies generally depict prisoners along the same lines as society perceives them. they stereotype them to be gang members, ultra-violent and drug addicts.

25. Compare and contrast your prison adjustment with the prison stereotype.

my adjustment has been the opposite of the perception i shared with society before being locked up. there are the things that everyone generally knows about, but overall it is just alot of people trying to do the best time they can without being killed or living in the SHU.

26. In what ways is your adjustment similar?

i am similar to most people in that i do not involve myself in anything that does not affect me personally. i keep to myself and show respect to everyone.

27. In what ways is your adjustment different?

i feel that my adjustment is different because i have never been locked up before and now only have a short time to do. i do not need to break myself out of the mentality i held on the streets in regard to accepting a long term bid.

Describe what opportunities for personal growth and development exist in the different prison security levels:

28. High security.

29. Medium security.

Have not been there

30. Low security.

Have note been there

31. Minimum security.

Have not been there

32. Prior to release, what do prisoners generally say about their prospects for returning?

Most say they will not return, but because so few plan, they do.

33. In what ways, if any, do those who never return to prison serve their sentences differently from those who do return to prison?

Those who never return have a laser focus to improve and work, no matter what.

34. What steps can a prisoner take to improve chances of success upon release?

maintain a positive outlook on your release while ensuring you stay drama free within the prison.

Sentence length is not a factor that is controlled from within prison, but adjustment inside prison may influence success upon release. For a better understanding of prison expectations, describe your thoughts on:

35. What length of time would you consider long-term imprisonment?

i would consider 10+ years to be long term. i only have 41 months and i dont consider that to be long term.

36. What expectations do those in society have for long-term prisoners?

believe society expects people who are long term to have lost all sense of the outside world and would be considered inept.

37. What expectations do you suppose long-term prisoners have for themselves?

i assume that they will expect to return to society and do their best to adapt.

38. What do prison administrators and staff members expect of long-term prisoners?

most staff assume long term inmates to be reckless and out of control.

39. How would you define a “model inmate”?

a model inmate is someone who does nothing to affect their fellow prisoners in a negative way or create undue harm.

40. How does Michael’s prison journey support or refute prison stereotypes?

he has used his time to better himself and make the best of his coming release.

41. What role did the prison infrastructure play in influencing Michael’s journey through prison?

it only got in the way, but he prepared regardless

42. What vision governed Michael’s decisions as a prisoner?

to leave ready and to be able to contribute to society.

The Straight-A Guide includes seven attributes that he describes explicitly in the books Triumph!  And Success! What do the following attributes mean to you?

43. Attitude: What level of commitment do you make to preparing for success upon release?

i have  good intentions on my release and am looking for the best ways to maximize the positivity i have around me. i have only been locked up for a year and am still doing what i can to figure out how to attain the ends to my goals.

44. Aspiration: Where do you see yourself at various checkpoints in the future?

i see myself making consistent and constant progress. i assume myself to be even more successful than i was prior to my crime.

45. What distinguishes an aspiration from a fantasy?

reality. i had many fantasies when i first was locked up but realized through the support of my family that there were things put in place for me to acquire realistic goals in a realistic fashion.

46. Action: What steps are you taking toward aspiration?

i am working on relieving myself of the negative thoughts that drive me to commit crimes. as well as trying to ensure that i never lose the work ethic that i was raised with and had maintained for over a decade.

47. Accountability: How are you measuring progress?

i am not too sure how to measure my progress but i feel like if i can stay and positive and keep from trouble i am progressing.

48. Awareness: How knowledgeable are you about the atmospherics around you?

in my current state i am naive but i have learned much as time goes on. i have never been incarcerated before and the lifestyle is different than anything i have lived.

49. In what ways do you reach beyond the boundaries that currently confine you?

i try to do as much as i can to maintain the best of the relationships i have with my family. i also am trying very hard to change my train of thought and remain in a domesticated state while i am incarcerated.

50. What do you know about the challenges that will confront you upon release?

i know that i will have a hard time adjusting to being on the streets but mainly it will be finding a job that accepts what i have done. i feel as if though my family will have my back through the adjustment period and do what ever they can to be there for me whenever i feel weak or am losing my grip on being domesticated.

51. Achievement: When do you celebrate success?

i think if i make it through my 3 years of supervised release and have rebuilt a life through a career and with my family i can celebrate the first step toward success.

52. Appreciation: What role do others have in your success?

other people have a part in my success as long as i let them and listen to them when they are being sincere and have my best interest at heart.

53. Where did those choices lead?

so far the choices i have made to take part in treatment programs and drug classes have given me a better outlook and motivation to remain sober and rethink every decision i attempt to make.

54. What did you value then?

in the past i only valued money and material possesions. i neglected the true success of my life. i had the best life can offer but i was never satisfied with it because i wasnt rich. i had a great career, a wonderful girlfriend and a family that loved me but i thought success was something entirely different.

55. How would you guide your children if they were making choices in the same way?

i would tell my children about the value of family and a positive character in regard to irrational actions and desires.

56. What would you do differently if you could?

i would have never wasted my life through drugs and crime. i would have listened to my girlfriend all those years and looked at our incredible life through her eyes instead of trying to put my vision into her.

57. Describe the differences in your life today from the first days of your confinement.

the first days of my confinement i had terrible thoughts and thought i could never accept being in prison. now i feel good about this in a way. i feel that this is the best thing to happen to me as far as putting me in check and ensuring that i dont continue a lifestyle that will endanger my freedom or the lives of others however inadvertently.

58.  How have your activities from last week led to your activities for this week?

my daily activities include mainly drawing and playing guitar. i have always found it to be a great outlet for myself even when i was free and even more so now.

59. Identify the values by which you live.

my current values are simple; be responsible with my actions, avoid prison habits and attitudes, constantly pondering the best ways to re-enter society.

60. To what extent do your daily activities harmonize with the values by which you live?

i feel that my activities are perfectly in tune with my values. i have tried very much to be as positive as possible and to reflect on myself daily and check my daily actions in accordance to my aspirations.

61. How do your professed values relate to your perceived role in society?

i  believe my values will relate as far as keeping myself out of criminal activity and for people to see my spirit unchanged by prison.

62. Where does your allegiance lie?

my allegiance is to my family and my girlfriend. to prove that supporting me throughout this bid was not frivolous in any way.

63. Are values situational or absolute?

it can go both ways but i feel that my values will be absolute. ther are only certain circumstances that will change my mindset and that is only through an immediate threat of danger to my family and girlfriend.

 

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